Daydreaming about alternative lives to escape my own has become a coping mechanism which I have internalised so much that it happens unconsciously throughout the day. I’ll be always daydreaming in the back of my head no matter what I do
Sometimes I get so mad at myself like.. I have so much potential and I don’t put it to use, I could achieve so many things but instead I procrastinate and waste my time in things that don’t matter. I could throw my phone away and lock myself in my house with my books but it wouldn’t change anything. It’s all in my head, I’m my fucking limit and I don’t know how to cross it. I’m stopping myself and I don’t know what to do to change that…